Do you ever? (Rantish Post)

Do you ever just feel like a real big f***-up?
Like you've made so many mistakes in a short period of time that there's no way you can deny that you've been stupid, idiotic, blind?
Well, that was my week.
Letting everything bother me was the start.  Things that I shouldn't care about. Things that I cared way too much about.  These things ruined my week to begin with.  Just layer after layer of ill feelings and sadness.
Then there's the pushing away of the wrong people.  Everyone has people that are there to help you, and make you feel better.  So in the week that I felt hopeless and depressed, I neglected to let them help me. My own shadowed emotions helped me push them away despite them being there to help me think things through.
Next, being stubborn.  I'm a taurus, we're stubborn.  But that's no excuse for how I acted.  Sometimes you (really I) need to disregard my stubborn resistance and listen to other people.  Because 8 out of 10 times, they're right.  They can open your eyes to the truths you've been blocking out (referring back to the aforementioned blindness).
So, upset emotions, emotional detachment, and stubborness all lead to the cherry on top of this stupidity sundae.  I blamed all the wrong people for how I was feeling.  When I tried to swirl back into my shell of antisociallity, they tried to pull me back out, give me a pep talk and some advice, and I shunned them away. Dumb. Didn't I tell you? Just....really dumb of me.
Oh, and let's not forget to mention my BRILLIANT f***ing idea of trying to walk to the kitchen while my foot was asleep.  Yep, twisted something, plates dropped to the floor (along with me), a loud crack and now I'm left with a painful foot icing and elevated the night before prom. Like I said, brilliant huh?
Well, now that I've filled a page with my stupid decisions of this week, I hope anyone who reads this thinks before letting their emotions affect how they treat the ones who are truly there to help you out.  They want you to take their hand when they present it in front of you, so don't be idiotic like me and lose that one offer of help. Also, if you have something important tomorrow, it'd be best if you didn't try to walk to the kitchen while your foot is asleep.

Sherlock

Haven't posted in quite sometime, but these type of things sort of come in bursts of inspirations to me.  Anyways, this one was inspired by a random decision to check out the show "Sherlock".  I've heard a bit about it from friends but hadn't taken the time to attempt to watch it.  And I love Sherlock Holmes (books, movies, shows, etc).  So, whilst browsing netflix, and finding that "Midnight in Paris" wasn't available to watch online, I saw "Sherlock" in the suggestions, and decided to give it a shot (why not, I didn't have homework tonight).
My initial response to the show, so far, is a bit ambiguous.  The modernization definitely takes some getting used to.  And at times I feel like it's trying too hard to be recreated as a modern representation of the famous duo.  However, at the moments when I'm 'eh' and 'if-y' about the show, there is some type of amazing representation of the characters that I really see only when their scenes are together.  Holmes and Watson are both very complex characters, and I think alone, these actors have some work ahead of them before fitting into the historic shoes of the infamous detective team.  But, in the scenes that rely solely on their interaction between each other, I feel the shots and characteristics are executed quite well.  I first felt this in the scene where they meet.  Sherlock displays his famous ability of deduction before the mysterious gentlemen gets to fully introduce himself.  And Watson, being the type of person that not only looks forward to something new, but doesn't shy away from the unknown inquires Sherlock's abilities, but ultimately trusts him.
Then there is the scene where Sherlock discovers Watson is a doctor, and there is a fast exchanging of dialogue between the two about the terrors that Watson must have faced in the war.  And at the end of the conversation it is quickly revealed from both of them that Watson is in need of that same type of adventure.
It is these little moments that really pull out the traditional, and transcending traits of these two characters that is enabling me to continue to give this show a chance.  Hopefully the jump into modernization will grow on me eventually, because at this point it is a bit more distracting than beneficial to the show's overall execution.